Anger management
Jun. 12th, 2005 12:00 amI'm not really sure why, but I felt annoyed and on edge all day today. I felt like I was snapping at my kids (especially my three-year-old) constantly, and I rarely do that. The worst thing about my peevishness was that I honestly don't know why I felt that way.
Yeah, there are some things going on in my life right now that have proven kind of annoying (generally in the work and finance arenas), but not really moreso than usual. And those certainly weren't any worse today. So for some unfathomable reason I was unpleasant to be around--even I didn't feel much like hanging around with me. Things best be better tomorrow, or I might have to banish myself.
(I'm wondering if it's the heat...I'm sweating as I type this. This sort of oppressive heat was one of the reasons I moved away from the South in the first place. At least it's only one season here rather than three.)
Also, as an update: I sent another person a message via OKCupid tonight. Far, far less deliberating than it took the first time...I hadn't even seen this person's profile before tonight, and immediately fired off a message. I don't know if that lack of deliberate consideration will ultimately prove to be a good or a bad thing, but at least I'm getting past the being afraid portion of the program. (For the record, should these messages I've initiated ever reach the whole "meeting in real life" phase, I intend to be scared as hell about that.)
Off to bed.
(P.S....yes, one of these days soon I'll post something where the mood is something other than foul. I'm really a very happy person, I swear!)
Yeah, there are some things going on in my life right now that have proven kind of annoying (generally in the work and finance arenas), but not really moreso than usual. And those certainly weren't any worse today. So for some unfathomable reason I was unpleasant to be around--even I didn't feel much like hanging around with me. Things best be better tomorrow, or I might have to banish myself.
(I'm wondering if it's the heat...I'm sweating as I type this. This sort of oppressive heat was one of the reasons I moved away from the South in the first place. At least it's only one season here rather than three.)
Also, as an update: I sent another person a message via OKCupid tonight. Far, far less deliberating than it took the first time...I hadn't even seen this person's profile before tonight, and immediately fired off a message. I don't know if that lack of deliberate consideration will ultimately prove to be a good or a bad thing, but at least I'm getting past the being afraid portion of the program. (For the record, should these messages I've initiated ever reach the whole "meeting in real life" phase, I intend to be scared as hell about that.)
Off to bed.
(P.S....yes, one of these days soon I'll post something where the mood is something other than foul. I'm really a very happy person, I swear!)